Sorry, it has been a while...

I am sorry that I haven't posted in a while because I have been so busy lately and didn't have the time to post so it'll be a big update for you guys. Anyways, I have been back home with my husband Jeremy since December, 23rd 2004 and things has changed for the better. We have started going to joint marriage counseling since last Thursday and it went well. The court also did went well and my brother-in-law James went there with me to show the support. We have to go to court on Jan 13th and Feb. 3rd to check on the updates and etc. I am glad that things has been working out between us. We did have a really good Christmas. My dad came here with the huge turkey and we cooked dinner for Christmas Eve. Then we opened Christmas presents and the next day which is Christmas Day, my dad followed us to Illinois which we went to see my mom's side of the family. My dad went on his seprate way to his house so we was at my grandparents' house. It went good and we went to my mom's house and we stayed the night there. Then the next day in the afternoon, we went to my dad's house and dropped Nathan off so he could spend some time with him since Jeremy and I was going on a date together. Jeremy and I wen't to Steak 'N' Shake resturant then we went to the mall to shop around for a while. And we went to Barnes & Nobles bookstores to look for books. Finally, we went back to my dad's house and picked Nathan up and his stuff. We was on our way back home and we went to bed because it was a long day. New Years' Eve did went well also. Jeremy's mom watched Nathan for the night while we went to Kokomo and shopped at a few places and we went to AppleBees because my grandparents gave us a gift card from there. The food was awesome and he had sky blue alcoholic drink. I tried the Mudslide drink and it was awesome.. so I had another one. Oh man, I was so buzzed already.. LoL! We had a dish of dessert which was carmel cheesecake with cinnion buns.. yum! The next day which was last Saturday, we picked up Nathan and his things then we headed home. We spent alot of time with him. And yesterday, Jeremy's sister Jackie came over to watch Nathan for a couple of hours since we decided to go out on another date so we went back to Kokomo and went to Target to get some cooking things that I needed. And we went to the mall and guess what? We bumped into James and his girlfriend Amanda with some of his friends.. we hung out for a while. James and the rest of the people had to go because they was going to a movie theatre to watch a scary movie but I don't remember the name of it. Then we was hungry so we stopped by Ruby Tuesday resturant. We never went there before so it was our first time there. The food was so delicious! Then we stopped by Mejiers and shopped around for a while and headed home. Jeremy told Jackie to get in the car with him and he dropped her off home at their mother's house then he headed back home. We spend some time with Nathan then when it was time for Nathan to go to bed.. he was sleeping already so he put Nathan in the crib quietly. And we watched South Park Season Part 3 on the DvD player and just relaxed for a couple of more hours before we headed to bed. Wow, seems so busy for a while, eh? Nathan is now 7 months old and is still trying to crawl. He's still trying to learn how to sit up also. Nathan seems like he wants to walk now also on the walker.. LoL! He has been eating solids now but only pure soft foods first before the hard ones. Nathan's on juices also but still have to feed him on forumla until he turns a year old. Did I tell you that he got two teeth now? It appears that he got the 3rd one coming now..oh boy! I can't believe that Nathan is going to be 8 months old on January 20th already! He is due to have shots next week on a Monday, poor him! Nathan has been wearing 6-9 months clothes and now he is on some 9-12 months clothes so we need to buy more clothes of 9 to 12 months. Also he has been babytalking and I swear I could have heard him say, "Ma" but how do I know that when he calls me that name such as Mommy or Mom soon?

Again, I am so sorry for not updating for a while so I will update more often. :)

So Busy lately.....

Hey, whtatcha you all have been up to? I am sorry that I haven't been updating lately because I have been busy. We setted up the Christmas tree and it was so beautiful! And my son is going to be 7 months old on December 20th...wow time flys so fast! On Decemeber 23rd, I have to go to court with Jeremy for the contact order to be lifted then I will be home for the holidays. I have been hearing from my mom and my dad who saw him lately.. that they noticed a change in him. And he has been to counseling on his own and he's on medication for his nerves. It's also his 10th session and I told him that I would go with him to the counseling so we can work more on our marriage. I am going to see my brother in law James who is coming home for 2 weeks from the army. He was back from Afraghan (sp?) before Thanksgiving so right now he is back stationed in Ft. Bragg, NC like always. I recieved a Garfield Christmas card from him so it was nice of him! James can't wait to see Nathan and he hasn't seen Nathan yet because he left a week before Nathan was born but I have been updating the pictures of him and etc to James. By the way, I am done with Christmas shopping so Jeremy and I am going out on a date the day after Christmas plus shopping. My dad will have Nathan for the rest of the day so it's gonna be alot of fun. Speaking of Nathan, he has been crying alot in the past few days and yesterday I felt something on his gums.. omg he got a tooth growing now! I couldn't believe it because he's growing so fast. I was crying too because I can't image him with teeth and that he looks so cute without teeth.. LoL! He's been on all kinds of gerber juices and he's eating gerber baby foods lately. Jeremy sent us a new car seat for Nathan also.. it's really nice!

Congrats on AllyKat for walking the first time ever before her first birthday which is on Decemebr 17th! Katzie, did you know that my step-sister Nikki has the same birthday as your daughter? Yep, she's going to be 12 years old already!

Hang on to Kyler, Crazymomma because he's growing up fast before your eyes because I am gonna miss Nathan as a baby and it breaks my heart when i put away his tiny clothes to the next new step of clothes. I will always have the memories and pictures of Nathan as a baby though. I secretly want him to be a baby forever but as the same time I want to see him grow up and what he looks like.

Desiree, I hope you pass the test and get the job that you want! And keep Lilo warm! :)

Heather, my little step sister, you seem to be so busy right now and we lead two different lives but hope one day we get away from everything and we can get together and chat away! Don't forget that I love you!

Nikki, happy early 12th birthday! I love you!

Danielle, take care of yourself and don't forget that I love you too!

Charlene, I am always here for you if you need me to talk about anything.. we should hang out sometimes soon. :)

And to my other loved ones...MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Waiting for snow....

I have been waiting for snow lately.. hope we get alot of it. We can play in the snow and have ball fights.. it has been a while since I played in it. I had fun in high school when my friends and I went on this ski trip to Kalamzroo(sp?), Michigan on January 2000. I didn't go on the ski because I am afraid of the heights but I did get to play ball fights and other stuffs. LoL, I also met my ex-boyfriend Cory on that trip also! Our school Central and the other schools such as Iroquis, Wateska and Kankakee went on 2 buses together.. we had alot of fun and got to meet other new people. I remember kissing Cory on the bus and my 2 friends Jackie & Bobbie was peeking on us! I was like,"Hey, what you are looking at?" They was giggling and said,"Ohhh that's a nice kiss of you guys!" I was laughing also.. LoL! Cory and I dated on and off for a few months.. he took to several of his dances in his Iroquis high school and he also went to the winterball dance with me at Central. I was also friends with his sister Heather and I spent few nights at the house. It was a lot of fun. Cory's other brother Cody was dating my friend Bobbie at the time but it didn't last very long. I am glad that I am not with Cory anymore because he was always on the rebound. Good part of the trip was that I got to meet new people and went to alot of places there.. plus they had very good hot choclate there! Yum!

Did you know that yesterday was the Sex Day? Arugh dang.. it got me wanting some lovings yesterday ! Did any of you guys had some lovings yesterday? Anyways, I am gonna visit with my dad on Saturday for a little bit then gonna do some christmas shopping with my mom then meet up with my friend Sarah W. who I haven't seen in a while. Besides that, Nathan has been doing really good. I have to get size 3 diapers now since he's almost 18-20 lbs.!!!! Oh boy, he's growing up so fast! He's wearing 6-9 months clothes and he has been trying to crawl for a little bit now.. he wants to crawl farther! He has been eating some solids but he's still on forumla. I am still not sure if he should be starting to drink some juices right now. Let me know asap, ok? Nathan already got his shots and the flu shot also.. he has to go on December 20th (turning to 7 months old) for another shots...poor him! Also he has been baby talking alot lately and trying to do sign language! It's so adorable!!! My mom said she swore she heard Nathan trying to say mom to me.. hehe.. it made me feel so special!

Katzie,, congrats on your new SUV so enjoy it and be careful! :)

*meows* SarahKat

Looking foward to Christmas!!!!

Hey all, how did Thanksgiving went for you guys? Mine did went well. We ate turkey, mashed potatos with gravy, brocci/cailflower with melted cheese, ham, chicken, etc.. wow I was full on that day especially I ate pumpkin pie which is my absolute favorite! :) My son Nathan is 6 months old now and it breaks my heart because he grows up so fast but secretly I wanted him to be a baby forever! I am proud of my son lately because he held the bottle and finished the forumla himself without my help when I was holding him! When he is done, he threw the bottle on the floor and he smiled me..that melts my heart! I am going to take him to Picture People at the mall so he can look cute in Santa Clause or Ruloph the Red-Nosed Reindeer outfit for the Christmas pictures.. and send it out to everybody that I know of. *Katzie and others.. if you want a picture of Nathan.. let me know in e-mail, ok. :)* Right now, I am looking for the recipes for Christmas Eve and Day..and on foodnetwork.com...they do have 12 days of Christmas cookies which I have done it before.. so I really can't wait for it. I love cooking especially when it comes to desserts!

Hmm...things has been looking better for Jeremy since he has gotten help such as counseling and he's on the 5th session already. I hope he continues to improve and so that we can be home together for the holidays. I do love him and miss him though. Life isn't fair but we all have to learn the hard way and live life to the fullest.

*meows* SarahKat

A Dream....

I had a dream last night about a guy who I used to have a big crush on and he was one of my very good friends named Kyle H. I dreamt that we met again at the mall while I was doing Christmas shopping with one of my friends named Amanda B. whose I went to school with. We sat down at the cafe and I had hot choclate to begin with. We chatted about what the heck we have been doing. And I told him why I am in Illnois for a while and that I have a son also. He was shocked and said to me,"Sarah, You deserve so much better than that and I admit that I still do have those feelings for you." I was such in a shock and then I was in awe of it. Kyle and I would see eachother whenever we was free and after the divorce, he asked me to marry him and I said Yes. What was the dream telling me? Is it telling me it's an urge to see Kyle again? Or something else? I am tellling you guys.. Kyle is one of the nicest guy I went to high school with. He has those beautiful brown eyes, spiked dark brown hair and he's an altheic. You see, I always had a thing for football players and one day I met him through one of my friends.. We hit it off as friends and I asked him to hang out and dance with me at the homecoming dance. He said,"Sure, I'd love to." The homecoming dance was wonderful.. we danced and we had good chat..of course plenty of laughs..the snobby girls was so jealous.. I didn't care about them.. all I had was a good time with Kyle. And when the dance was over, it was time for everybody to go home. Well, I was waiting for my dad to come get me, Kyle stopped by and we chatted, I was cold and he lend me his black leather coat. Finally, my dad stopped by and he met with Kyle. It was nice and then Kyle and I hugged eachother about 4 times. It was the best time I ever had. :) Kyle would always watch out for me when it comes dating other guys..I remember he would say,"If they hurt you, I am going after them." LOL..sigh I miss Kyle and I am going to ask my friends Erin & Amanda about having Kyle hang out with us sometimes soon.

*I don't have the picture online right now but I will scan the picture of his senior picture.. omg I am telling you.. he has beautiful brown eyes and a perfect smile*

*meows* SarahKat

Thanksgiving Plans...

Hey Guys and Girls! I can't wait for Thanksgiving because I love the food and have family & friends together!:) I am going to my grandparents' house on Thanksgiving then on Friday I am going to have Thanksgiving with my mom. And at last, I am also going to have it at my dad's house. This weekend I am having early Thanksgiving dinner with my girl friends so it should be a lot of fun. :) I was supposed to see my friend Cody who I went to IL School for the Deaf with but he has to go out of state for Thanksgiving so I will see him the weekend after Thanksgiving. Cody and I planned to go out for lunch with his ex-boyfriend Bailey and just hang out at the mall also. I bet you guys are gonna go shopping on the day after Thanksgiving!!! I am planning on doing that with my mom and hopefully finish the Christmas shopping so I don't have to worry about last mintue. :) Well, I better go now but I will post again later when I get the chance to.

*meows* SarahKat

Name those people who you are glad that was born?

First of all I am glad that my mother has given me life because I was the one who was almost aborted...my mom hid me the entire pregnancy because she was scared that my grandparents would tell her to abort me.. the reason being that she wasn't married and in college by that time. But I am glad that I am given that chance to experience life! :) 2nd of all, I am glad that Jeremy's mom gave Jeremy life when she was 16 years old or I wouldn't have the best gift in the whole world...NATHAN!!! I truly love Nathan so much..he's my number one and my entire world! I am glad that my friends was also born because they r truly wonderful people including my step sisters Heather, Danielle and Nikki. I am glad that my little brother Matthew was born and my cousins too! :) One of those guys I am glad that was born and close to is my brother in law James because he has a sense of humor and just knows what to do in life. Famous people that I am glad was born are Jim Carrey, Will Smith, Paula Cale, Elvis & Priscilla Presley, Lisa Marie Presley, Mel Gibson, Racheal Ray, & Emeril. That's all I could think of! You can go ahead and post in your blog of who you are glad that was born. :)

But one of very special people in my family is my dad that I am most glad was born because he's a wonderful father in my life and I am lucky to have him even though my parents arent together anymore. Well, I better let you go now.. I will post again later.

*meows* SarahKat